In that last five previous posts, we’ve been exploring how the devil stole your soul by planting a thought in the heads of Adam and Eve, from which they deduced that they were not created perfect the way God made them. They passed this message onto their children and each successive generation has followed suit.
That message is personified in most people’s heads as the voice of ‘ego,’ a voice they’ve taken on as their own. This voice lies to you, leading you down a path where you define your life from a feeling that you’re inherently flawed, making you ‘unlovable’ and / or ‘not good enough.’ Subsequently, you berate yourself for those imaginary flaws that the unlovable voice in your head says you have. In shame you isolate yourself from your true self, others, and even from God Himself. Yes, it is you breaking off your spiritual connection that makes for an absent God.
Your life mirrors what is going on in your head, which puts you continually on the run from the ‘bad things’ that you think are going on in and around you. Thus, you cannot see that it is you creating that inner and outer environment. And you wear yourself out trying to wear a mask that you hope others will accept. It lll eads to lethargy, isolation, physical illness and violence.
The violence stems from your resistance against the world you perceive, and you make yourself a victim to relieve you from having to take responsibility for your life. You begin to identify with the harsh criticisms hurled at you by that voice: ‘Yes, I just don’t have what it takes;’ i.e. you are defining yourself as a loser and manifest that for everyone to see; and see it they do…
Characteristic #1: Suspended animation
In other words, you’re living life (if you want to call it that) outside of real time. The voice helps you do this by stealing your time, robbing you from the only time in which reality exists – in the present moment. It does that by continually pummeling you with the events of your past (primarily your version of it: your Life Story). As it immerses you in the past, it tells you that you are your past. So, your life becomes a reflection of your childhood and you become preoccupied in trying to fix that inner wounded child’s problems.
We chase our own tails, reliving what we think are the events of our past, over and over – giving them a little more oomph with each revolution.
Not only does our ‘dark mind’ use the past to control us, but it also dangles the hope of a better future in front of you – again to keep you from living in the present moment. In addition, the only place we can experience God is in present time.
(The voice also beats you over the head with what it says are the sins of your past, so that you will be too ashamed to seek Him out anyway.)
Your only real and ongoing sin is living in suffering, and throwing your precious life away. But you know what? Christ has already died and rose again so that you could gain forgiveness for any transgression in your past, and He is willing to help you retrieve your present:
“Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder the things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, now it will spring forth; will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.” Is. 43:18, 19. NASB
“I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for My own sake; and I will not remember your sins.” Is. 43:25 NKJV
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. [I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls.] Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle (meek) and humble (lowly) in heart, and you will find rest (relief and ease and refreshment and recreation and blessed quiet) for your souls. For My yoke is wholesome (useful, good – not harsh, hard, sharp, or pressing, but comfortable, gracious, and pleasant), and My burden is light and easy to be borne.) Mt. 11:28 – 30. AMP
God never intended for you to live a burdensome life, trapped in some illusory past. He knows that when you continually put your mind in front of your eyes, you can only give Him your back.
You know when you have chosen your past over God because you remain frozen in time – revealed by a conversation in your head that is only about the past. You continually spew forth sentences such as ‘If only I would have done ___.’ ‘If only I’d married ___.’ ‘If only I wasn’t so ___.’ ‘If only my parents weren’t so ___.’ ‘If only, if only, if only…’
It’s a conversation consisting of a string of regrets (attachments to the past) – a flurry of thoughts telling you that you, someone else, or something else must change in order for you to be happy. You do the same thing when you’re lost in some nebulous future: ‘If only I could be taller, richer, etc.’
What happens when you keep these conversations going in your head? Nothing happens. Why? Life is only lived in the present moment.
The voice likes you in the past because that is where it can exercise its power. It is not omniscient. That’s why it doesn’t like you in the present moment because that represents change – an unpredictable state of affairs that it can’t control. So it keeps presenting your world as an ongoing stream of past events with warnings like ‘What if this happens again?’ In other words, it preserves its relevance by keeping you believing that your worst nightmare is lurking just around the corner.
What it has done is that in your mind it has changed the true meaning of time as the opportunity to live a meaningful life, and made it the enemy – a place where you cower in the fear of replaying your past.
How does that look? Life never seems to be what we think it should be. It’s a life we map out in order to avoid the pain of our past, which ultimately keeps our focus on that very same pain.
Instead of seeking out God to help us ferret out the roots of our dissatisfaction with life, we change jobs, relationships and geography, or we immerse ourselves in meaningless activities of distraction – remaining the author of our own vexation.
Life changes with our without you. You suffer because you want your sad life to remain the same because it’s all you know and because you know the person you have to be to live it. But, it just continues to worsen because your past is bottomless. Why? Because you continue to embellish your Life Story so that there are always new nuances with which to beat yourself up with.
This is not living; it is dying unconsciously…
No one makes the conscious decision to be wounded, yet those wounds will continue to fester in those who will not let go of their past.
Whatever happened in your past my or may not have been your fault. It may or may not have happened the way you remember it. Whatever happened, IT DOESN’T MATTER! What matters is that you learn from it and move on.
You cannot get that time back or undo what has transpired. You have to let it go. That part is your responsibility.
It’s time to seek God and let Him wake you from your suspended animation and fit you with a new watch.
But as for me, I trust in You O LORD; I say, “You are my God,” my times are in Your hand; Ps. 31:14, 15. NKJV
For I know the thoughts I think towards you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, says the LORD, and I will bring you back from your captivity… Jer. 29:11 – 14. NKJV
Until next time…
Goodnight and God bless.