That’s a loaded question. In the three previous posts, we’ve been examining the premise that the devil steals souls by placing thoughts in the heads of children – suggesting they are flawed. We’ve seen that this leads to a tendency for them to believe they are subsequently unacceptable and / or unlovable to both God and other people. We then followed how that mindset was unconsciously passed down from parent to child first, (because their parents passed it down to them) and then from the public schools, government, and media.
Finally we looked at how children (like yourself) create a defense mechanism against the potential pain of rejection (for their imaginary flaws), which consists of a mental construct called ego. This ego also has a voice that the host eventually believes is their own. It begins showing up as a ‘protector,’ but then this mental blight (Dark Mind) batters its creator relentlessly until it becomes the taskmaster.
Of course God could impose His voice at any time, but that isn’t’ how He works. He allows you to exercise your free will. If you choose to listen to that voice in your head, He has no options. He will not violate His covenant. The other side of that is when ego has its way with you, you’re so busy trying to survive that you can’t hear God’s voice anyway…
If you’re trying to make sense of this, and you’re here for the first time, I strongly urge you to read those preceding posts.
Now let’s examine what your life looks like when that voice in your head is running the show:
That Dark Mind combs through every snippet of your thoughts in order to mimic you, so that you become blind to its presence as it being something distinct and separate. When you hear it, you believe it’s you thinking out loud. So you take everything it says at face value as the absolute truth.
This leads to continual confusion because we cannot look to darkness for clarity. We search for the things that make us suffer but never realize that the darkness we harbor is suffering itself.
Suffering serves no purpose because it has nothing to teach us. Most of our suffering comes from our attachment to our past, or more accurately, ego’s embellished (false) version of it – our ‘Life Story.’ In essence then, we are living the life of the upset child within us who is lonely, scared, and feeling unacceptable. Worse, we are wasting our lives trying to fix that child’s non-existent (they are in the past after all) problems.
Remember! You can’t solve problems that aren’t real.
You become a victim of a false reality where you exist as a perception of smallness, ineptness and as one who is surrounded by problems.
You act on the solutions presented to you from the voice in your head. Your actions unfortunately consist of those that justify your Life Story – making it more real and you more self-righteous, so your actions don’t impact your real world. You begin to judge others whom you feel are at the root of your problems, as well as yourself. In other words, you are joining the voice in your head, helping it punish you. Suffering results.
Suffering comes at the hands of our self-rejection, not accepting our true selves or the reality of the world around us, preferring to cling to our illusions. It’s our preferences that lead to our unhappiness; and ‘unhappy’ is where the voice in our head wants us. It keeps us distracted and compliant.
This all runs contrary to God’s plan:
My son, if sinners entice you, do not consent. Pr. 1:10 NKJV
The voice in your head is a sinner of the worst kind; indeed, it was fashioned from the author of sin. But God is always waiting if you’ll meet Him halfway:
Let us test and examine our ways, and return to the LORD! Let us lift up our hearts and hands to heaven: “We have transgressed and rebelled….” Lam. 3:40 – 42. ESV
You came near when I called you; you said, ‘Do not fear!’ You have taken up my cause, O Lord; you have redeemed my life. Lam. 3:57, 58. ESV
However, if you don’t reach out to God, how does this dark life like this look?
1. It’s a life lived in fear of false problems animated by knee-jerk reactions of self-defense.
2. It’s a life without love because no one gets a chance to meet the real you that is hidden behind the mask – that false persona you present, hoping others will accept. Thus you modify your behavior to bring pleasure to others, neglecting the things that matter most to you. Should someone fall in love with your mask, it brings no satisfaction because your primary need is to be loved for who your really are. It is no life, because your mask isn’t real.
As our lives progress beyond childhood, we encounter major events and interactions with others whom we thought that were bigger-than-life and more powerful than us. In other words, we assigned (mostly false) meanings to these experiences. It is these meanings that are the root of our problems. We attach meanings where there were none.
You avoid any event or person whom you have judged to have the potential to bring a repeat of your past sufferings. You avoid events, so you live a life void of challenges that can bring growth and you avoid people, so you get to be lonely as well.
What is that? It’s a life of mediocrity, false security and loveless-ness.
Furthermore, our obsession over our past colors our present with these false meanings, so that our now and our tomorrows become self-fulfilling prophecies of our yesterdays. What you think is what you see. *
*For as he thinks within himself, so he is. Pr. 23:7 NASB
But the life we see is not the one we want; so we live a life of resistance – choosing to resist reality and to resist taking responsibility for how our lives are turning out. We resist by distracting ourselves from life, either through entertainment, busyness or addictions.
And the Dark Mind continues its incessant demonic-based chatter in the background, never saying anything uplifting – telling you that you are incomplete unless you remove your flaws, change yourself, or acquire some physical bauble so that you can keep up with the Joneses.
Guess what? Should you be so fortunate to meet any of these goals, it will continue to come up with more ‘required’ challenges as it let’s you know that you still have not arrived…
You know you’re suffer this way when you pepper yourself with questions such as ‘Why does this happen to me?’ ‘Why am I this way?’ ‘What is wrong with my life?’ These are questions designed by the voice in your head to perpetuate your suffering.
The bottom line is that stuff happens to us in life. We (with a little Dark help) made a decision about it or about ourselves and it altered the way we felt about ourselves, others or about life itself. And our lives changed as a result.
I was not immune to this dismal cycle either. At the tender age of seven, I got into a altercation with the neighbor boy and he was getting the upper hand. My father came home at the moment the boy had me pinned to the ground. All he did was walk into the house. He thought that was the right thing to do, to teach me how to be tough. (I wouldn’t learn that until years later.)
I made a decision that he didn’t love me and it altered our relationship until the day he died. I made the further assumption that if the person I loved the most didn’t love me, I must be unlovable. My life was one of suffering for decades after that event – all due to a misunderstanding.
But it’s what we do. It’s such a unnecessary, devastating way of living. That’s why I’m dedicating this present series (from painstaking experience, research, and prayer) to everyone so that we can break free of these chains, reconnect with God, and have the lives we desire.
Whatever we did in the past we did because we were afraid. I was afraid to ask my dad if he loved me. I was afraid he’d say ‘no.”
No one deserves condemnation for being afraid; but it is our responsibility to get past our fears by invalidating their roots so that we can be free of our reactionary responses to them. We need to do this because the lies that we’ve woven around people and events are far more damaging that the people and events themselves.
You’re about to go on the hunt to spot the darkness whenever it’s present. Then we’ll learn (with God’s help) how to eliminate it.
And behold, I am with you and will keep (watch over you with care, take notice of) you wherever you may go… Gn. 28:15 AMP
Stay with me…
Goodnight and God bless.